finding me??

just got home from Church... and to tell all of you honestly, ive been missing singing terribly hehehe

no songs to hear.
only sermons and
more word of HIM..


i think im starting to feel good again... im finding strength to face and not flinch on these problems(not really)..


got few reliable companion
and a faithful Lord..

owkie.... i dont wanna feel that state again, that's miserable enough...
its like everyday im feeling so more than lonely...


i thought i want to find myself..
but now


i

just

realized

that

i cant surely

do it....


so now...

i

will


just


LOSE MY SELF


in My Lord....



whoaa... i cant wait to hear that song again... ;)


anyways. im just happy, more than happy.... again.... to know that after these He remained so faithful.. :)

thus HE truly deserves all of me...

wait waiiit...

MInsan nababagot na din ako mag antay… whoaaa… napanis yun motto ko na “I love
waiting…” heheheeh..

Gone to Makati… passed resumes(oh yeah.. you know the motto TRY nad TRY until…) that I think would lead to the shredders or to the scratches.. Still I have to wait for calls…. How long?????????????

Sometimes im losing hope and patience…… I dk why… seems im turning like one of the many “hasty” people, which I hated before… hehehe…

Last night, I had a conversation w/ a sis in Christ bout some love stuffs.. OKAYYY! She’s the one having problem on this not so important relationship w/ her bf… (not that impt? LOL). Well the only thing I have said was “WAIT for God’s perfect timing”.

Maybe I can also shout that advice for myself… Anyhows even though I can wait for my “Mine” I think it would also apply in my ojt frustrations.

“WAIT PATIENTLY… DEBORAH JOY LUIS BRUTAS!”. Haha. I remember Joey txted me w/ my whole name just saying that I shouldn’t call her @ home because she’s away w/ someone. Lol.

I wish my resume will be seen immediately.. All I wanted is to start and end right away so I can do more stuffs and not waste time… (Oh I thought about J.Piper) hehehe..

GOD direct me into Your perfect plans.. Your will be done.. Let every breath, every step declares Your glory….

refreshed....

its been a long long longgggg time. LOL..

i have decided to fix this page... i d k, maybe it's just December (prolly the nicest season to write anything based on my mood..)

anyhows, i had a long day crying over some stuffs bout the service... maybe its my bad too that i had spoken words that should be kept privately.. im gonna do a serious soul-searching..

i made up my mind on a 2-week singing break, not because im tired but because i just wanna seek God and find Him... I need Him terribly.. maybe after I had learned my lesson, I can sing more powerful only for Him...

Sometimes im tired of these repetitive non growing stuffs because i cant sense Him moving, and I dont want to move w/o Him... I need HIM.. even all these music fails all i need is HIM...


im broken, You will make me whole again....