Shine for my Saviour...: February 2008

im prolly not okay.

i know this will pass.

=)

stiill hard2get..

guess whaaaa?

i moved on. LOL

ang drama.

i guess i would only have to let emotions pass for more than 15 minutes. LOL

ang corny ko talaga. Mood swing lang ata toh. LOL.

disturbed...

even in dream i was haunted by the past.. and it got me thinking. I am disturbed by the moments i cant retrieve.

i liked someone but really did not wanted. Does it sounds "sour-graping". No-no. Besides i cant really visualize the two of us together.

i dont know. i dont want to stay like this for any longer.

Take this Lord, im giving it all up.

I'll wait for Your very best.

finally... i can take a rest...

Finally!!..

now the Barista seminar is over...

a. i can have more time

b. i can wake up late again.

c. i wont have to cram.

d. back to normal. Namiss ko din yun mga prof ko, honestly. :)

haha. its been 3 fast days seeing the same faces, long hours of work and not enough (o wala talaga) sleep. Its back to normal in Tuesday and luckily i can use Monday for detoxyfying and relaxation. Grabe, haggard talaga. It seemed like my desire for being so busy was easily granted.

Woohoo, Anyhows, Jency's whammy moo dance steps is still mabenta. I cant recover.. We named our imaginary Coffee Shop as "Kaf'Euphoria" and had the baristas motiff of wearin bumblebees, thats why i have brought my eyewears just for us to look like "bulags".

these are some pics on Hands on. Jency was my partner doin the macchiato ecstacy. LOL.

a pray over or seminar?

more daw on Jency's whammy whammy moo energizer...

macchiato ecstacy aka iced caramel macchiato

finished work.

Anyways (again), the G2BFChallenge was played, i somehow got consolations from my sister telling that "hindi ka naman nila kukunin dahil hindi ka ganun kataba, kelangan nila ng obese". Hahaha. Honga naman, i thought. No regrets, i just wanted to join because i thought i can escape skew activities for a month. Haha. It really wasnt God's will for me. Besides, nacocornihan nalang din ako, i'd rather crave for cheese corn. Haha

Woohoo. Masaya. Madaming lessons, tawa at ka-praningan ang nakuha at nagawa. I cant wait being busy again for the next week finalsand activity and I will somehow surely miss those instructor, sana sila uli this next week for the new seminar. Looking forward on a new great week..

tag-haggard.

waahh.. magandang madaling araw.

kalahati nalang ang mata ko. wala pa akong tulog kahapon at ngayon pa lang ako matutulog at dapat pala akong gumising uli ng napakaaga.

namamanhid na katawan ko sa pagod.

pero nakita ko sya kanina, naka-white. irrelivant na. Haha

natupad ang kahilingan ko na maging sobrang abala, at sa totoo nga. ABALANG-abala.

grabe wala na talaga sa kondisyon mag-isip pa ng matagal at maramihan ang utak ko..

antok na antok na ako..

nyt...

learn.

It seems like im learning more lessons in skew this past few weeks. I finally learned and somehow value people’s effort (teachers, instructors, guards, etc) in teaching and training us. Its like I finally empathized their feelings of not being obeyed. I think Laoshi’s efforts on teaching us touched and moved me to strive for more and ditch the complacent attitude. Too bad that there is only a month left to persevere and make up on some neglected subjects.

I realized I have wasted a school year grumbling and seeing the negative part of lessons but now I think God is giving me new convictions towards studies and life-lessons. That’s why Im doing my best right now in everything. I don’t wanna waste time and efforts from this very moment. The voice of efficiency beckons me. I don’t wanna pay no attention to its benefits. Thank God He’s leading me in the right path and never failed to renew my mind and my perspectives each and every moment.

overeating is no good.

im addicted to:

1. my new Bible
2.Marrying a millionare k-novela.
3.eating and over eating.
4. photographs of weird faces and places.
5.bad hair days. hehe.

its seems each and every day my weight is gaining more and more and i cant stop over eating and craving chocs.

Today. I just bummed around. I didnt go with some friends in Jency's party. Wala naman ako kwenta. Hehe. Im quite tipid nowadays. im looking forward on a great day of extravagance. LOL. and my savings just started with 20$. Nothing quite unusual, do the laundry, dishwashing, books, lil TV, more food. Haha. I hang @ my cousin's crib, then we watched some DVD's and eat as usual.

Yesterday. Its my first time to pass a mandarin requirement. HAHAHA! Dont ask, 85 means staying up late memorizing complicated mandarin words, and to tell you, not even 1/4 of the class pass on his (Laoshi's) exams. It felt so great. But ofcourse im expecting a lower grade on classcard. HAHAHA. Asa..

I hope its March na. Im excited on the activity. I cant wait to stretch my lazy bones again. I hope I can be busier as bee by tomorrow. i havent receive any productive things on overeating chocs. except that it taste sooo goood... hmm.. i wanna have one, again. ;p

happeee.....

Valentines day....

is just an ordinary day for singles. Hahaha. Except that it is weirder for us that we got mad everytime we saw ladies passing with flowers.

Oh well, we had chocolates anyways. Plus we had letters (kay Jack nga lan galing). And we had a good laughing trips due to waiting for more than 5 hours on our M.I.C.E. class.

I ate lot and i cant help myself. Thats why my uniform again is getting smaller, i love to eat,...

im happy i talked with this certain person.. haha

anyways. these are some pics.

everybody's crazy over this,

ang tagal..

salampak galore.

monte

happy singols.

mamamatay yun kuko ng nasa gitna. lol

bat nyo cya iniwan.

thanks to the one who fixed this. =)

i cant tell much...
anyways (again) sorry if i havent fixed my blog last night..

hahaa..

x0x0..

its 4th

its official.........

Its my 4th year being single.

Cyerp.. Nothing has changed. Just right decisions coming my way.

I went to OMFLit Bookstore this afternoon and got a new Bible which is my Valentine Gift to myself. And wooowww… Astig yun mga books.the bookstore is close to heaven and I don’t wanna leave that place. Im looking forward on a book shopping! Im excited.

Anyhows, Im getting paranoid on this FnR Got 2 B Fit Challenge. Whenever I saw the mailman I ask him “Kuya may sulat ba ako”. And he asked me why, and yea he thought I was waiting on something like Love letters. Hahahah… I also asked my mom frequently is someone phoned me. Haha. They were close in asking “ano ba yun?”

Nothing. Wala lan. I think its not His will to let me in, besides skew is stressing us again and I would like to hang out more with friends and laugh hard each and every day. I don’t have any hard feelings.. I didn’t expect much but Vooillaaa……. God is giving me more!!! Im excited and I’ll wait.. Ill wait at His very best, in every aspect. I want it His way. Let His will be done.

Tomorrow is such a happy day for singles.. Claim it! Anyways.. I have written my promises (the second post of Feb). I think at the end of the day, I’ll rather say “Thank You, Lord” in my prayers than “I love you” to someone.

Maybe I didn’t have the luck, but hey, I don’t want luck. I want blessings…

i wanna be more passionate..

I am full of earthYou are heaven’s worth
I am stained with dirt, prone to depravity
You are everything that is bright and clean
The antonym of me
You are divinity
But a certain sign of grace is this
From the broken earth flowers come up
Pushing through the dirt

You are holy, holy, holy
All heaven cries “Holy, holy God”
You are holy, holy, holy
I want to be holy like You are

You are everything that is bright and clean
And You’re covering me with Your majesty
And the truest sign of grace was this
From wounded hands redemption fell down
Liberating man
But the harder I try the more clearly can I feel
The depth of our fall and the weight of it all
And so this might could be the most impossible thing
Your grandness in me making me clean

Glory, halleluYah
Glory, glory, halleluYah
So here I am, all of me
Finally everything
Wholly, wholly, wholly
I am wholly, wholly
I am wholly, wholly, wholly
Yours

I really like this song lately. The lyrics of David Crowder songs are so transparent that one can easily tell that it came from the heart. Never heard any songs that are deeply felt other than the Gospel and Christian genre. I really love these passionate worship leaders (Henry Seeley, Brooke Fraser, Jason Upton, Phil Wickham, Jared Anderson, Jeff Deyo lotsss!!!) and somehow i wish that someday i would be just like them, zealous, fiery in seeking and pleasing God. Giving all of their life, talents, devotion and everything just for the glory of the Lord.

Im hungry for more of Your fire..

nice day..

I have been jinxed with my stuffs lately. I dont know what happened to my cam, I lost my nice mascara (pasalubong ni Kuya Nino, my sis' bf) , my pc is not working well again(maybe because of that bozo's friendster) and i wrecked my hair dryer. my very bestfriend. wheww... Oh well, there are greater things that happened and will goin to happen anyway. Thank God in advance. I dont have to flinch with these nonsense.

We had lunch at MOA. I finally met my uncle from Canada since his last visit was less or more than 8 years. And I wont be shocked if i've seen "strangers" haha. Ya know, people you have met before but you both decided to say "bye bye stranger" at the very end. Haha.

I had no bitterness and yerp, ive seen them (with his girl) and i can honestly tell that they deserved each other and surely i was so happy for them. And if supposed we are still friends, i can surely send him message telling that she has picked a nice lady!. Im such a sweet! I hope he can see this post. LOL.

Aryt, back to lunch.. we had a great one.. I wish my uncle will stay lil longer. And i have realized how I miss my tita and cousin in NJ. Well its a good message that i think theyre going to visit us this May. Tiba-tiba. Blessings. Hehehe

I got to skew @ past 4pm.. I missed my classmates due to a week long vacation (would i call it vacation?). whoa whoa..

Im excited for Jeka's audition to the music team.. Not because of the guy thing, but because of song song titles. HAhaha...

Ive beeeeennnn gaininggg weights and yea i cant control myself from eating and eating because God's blessings came pouring abundantly lately. Yea yea. Surely im always happy because He's my Supply on everything! Whats nice is He's more than enough for everything.

I'll start new plan this week. If I cant fast on food, ill prolly fast in some things.
Holy Spirit, guide me.Ü

-edit-edit-
ive think of one thing:
BYE FOR NOW FRIENDSTER!
a month off.

tears..

This is so sweet..... I found it here http://www.friendster.com/photos/3315726/1/551227454 , my friendster pics.

I know I rarely cry, but i love crying (thats so weird of me ryt?) yerp, especially when i cried because of hapiness and God.

Im waiting til the day the Bible's and Max Lucado's words are totally fulfilled. I can only imagine how will i react when i am standing right before Him..

like the song..

"will I dance? or would I be able to speak at all..."

All I know is "that is Oh, so beautiful"..

never again.

bluhhh... . I dont like this mere feeling of liking someone due to simple thoughtfulness. Aryt.. I'll set my standards higher again.. Haha..

Its just weird how I find him nice after that night. Blaaahh.. I dont want to have any crush! I guess that's weirder now.

Sound mind.

Self control.

I need more

and more.

dont want to waste time..

dont want to break pact.

and regret

no never..

never will I...

gonna keep myself together..

find myself in Christ.

Fast approaching is the day..

Yesterday, we went to Ma’am Cruz’ funeral. I can’t still believe how fast everything happened. I was mixed-emotion that I though that I should have talked to her bout some misunderstandings before the Lord has took her life. But I asked God for Spirit of forgiveness in this matter and that God would grant peace and joy in her soul toward the new life she is heading right now.

So I stayed overnight. “Naglamay”. We had some small fellowship at about 1-2am. And the rest was spent on chats and laughters. BAM!! Eye luggages was the common denominator on the people who spent the last night in Ma’am memorial service.

I heard some friend’s confession of how they fear death. The death of their love-one’s and their physical death. Somehow I felt for them too, how their logical view of life and the fear of death made me think and scared me on the moment. But, when I thought of the greatest things I can have after the physical death, that when you belong to a great GOD!, it excites me. The thought of hearing the trumpets of heaven, the angels welcome and rejoices at your presence, that God has a transformed body(im certain that this body is perfect!!!) and your Saviour waiting for You like the very reward on the things you overcome, the embrace and the intimacy you’ve been waiting all your life is finally before You. whoaaaaa…….. Real Heaven. More than joyful and euphoric. Soul-satisfying. There’s no greater joy that could replicate of His very presence and I can’t just miss that moment Oh Lord God. Lalala… That somehow uplifted my soul and spirit.

Life is real short. Fast approaching is the day. Our lives are but a breath says the people of God in His word. But our air is His word. We’d better breathe in.

I like the CS Lewis’ song line of…
“I was made to live.. I was made to love.. I was made to know You”.

Soul responded a happy “Amen”!

I Love You so, You never failed to amazed me and im always in awe of Your beauty, grace and everything You are Lord. You are LOVE, Life revolve and lives in love. And I want you more than I want to live another day. I love You, more than life itself.

exhausting thurs..

I didnt had the time to post yesterday's alila activity for us. Whew, my arms still aches to due over fanning of the grill's flame. As in. Super daming pagod. And what's nice is that we look like a trainee at a fast food. Haha. And the best part is the "garapalan" in eating of the foods we prepared. "Grabe talaga. Chorva!!" ( LOL! Who said this line?) qouting from that person, my classmates pagneneok of food was so obvious and Im the one who's embarrassed for them. LOL. And there is even a classmate who tried to rotate on all the works in the priviledge of tasting a small portion of his cuttings, breadings, mixings, etc. Hahah. Nakakapraning.

Its good that some prof didnt have to check us and judge us! (naman! naman!) Only Laoshi saw me wearing aviators while grilling (due to sobrang sakit sa mata ng smoke!!) and he banged saying "ay tangalin mo yan, san ka ba nakakita ng nakashades na nag-iihaw". Whew, recorded nanaman yan sa magagaling na tao, i almost hit the bingo stage at the college. What is in me???

Nagpagod, nag-asaran, nag-iyakan at napasukan lan ng malupit na usok yun utak ko. Haha. But its nice knowing in the end we had our "take-home" and jack conspired about it. Jkidding. Lol.

some pics.