Sorry...

Grabe yun katamaran ko.


I didnt go to skew this day for no good reason. "tinatamad ako". Ayaw ko makita si Laoshi at mga teacher. Ewan ko ba. Napanaginipan ko pa yun ever bestfriend kong professor na laki ng galit sa violet pumps ko. Haayy.. Grabe. I felt humiliated naman sa dream kasi sobrang inis talaga ata siya sa buong pagkatao ko. Kasalanan ko ba na suotin yun violet shoes na yun..

May uniform na daw sa activity sa 31, aalilain nanaman kame, gusto ko sana mag-ihaw na suot yun yellow shoes ko, para lalo siyang matuwa sakin. hahaha.

Pero ayaw ko naman magalit at kainisan. Naisip ko lang...



CHANGE TOPIC!!!




Whew. Birthday ni ate, 25th. Ang tanda na nya. Hehehe. Nakatunganga lang ako sa bahay para antayin yun treat nya at night haha. Ang saya mag fish-shopping. Nakakatuwa yun crabs, parang wala ng bukas sa laki. LOL. Ang saya kumain. Ng madami.. hehe..


Hehehe. Nawawala ako sa focus ngayon. Lagi ko nalang problema ito. Hay hay. Kelangan ko ng ayusin ito, klaruhin ang isip ko at lalong magpursige na hanapin Siya. Back to basic.. Ang dami bagay ang humahadlang sa pagtanaw ko sa Kanya. Pakiramdam ko ay nababawasan ang oras ko para sa Kanya at namimiss (miss na miss) ko na Siya...

Ganito talaga noh. Angulo. Kelangan ko na uli ng pag-aayos.. Kasi naman yan F&R Challenge na yan. Hahhaaa.. Hayy.. I'll start a new day, tomorrow.


Not mine but Yours be done..
Need new revelations...
let me be set apart..

only for YOU..

i live radically for God. =)

Ive been checkin and deleting some accounts when I thought of reviewing my old blogs. And look what Ive found..

Its Just weird how I read this message from my myspace. Lolx... Anyhows I find this bothering... hahahaha... Ok I'll just reply an answer to this post.. But I wont reply at his message.. (Too bad if he's not on my friendlist here!! He wont know the answer hahaha)

"i don't know what to say..i don't think if i'll call HOTTIE you would appreciate it...but trully u are regardless...i don't think if i would tell you're beautiful, you would believe me....hmmm....but one thing i can feel and i'd like to think, that you're one clever lady on a body of an angel with a very infectious smile.... But just looking at your pictures i began to wonder why are you still single..maybe it's your choice bec. you love FREEDOM or bec. you love your being single...or maybe it's something that is painted by chances...OR.... .maybe you're just too beatiful and too intimidating that some guys are afraid to even say HI to u.... Nevertheless, forgive me as I take the chance of saying hi to you and exploring the probability of an exchange....

hey by the way, my name is J***.....just droppin by.... "

whew..... that's smooothh hahaha...

The answer is a big I DONT KNOW! hahaha. Okay lets put it this way. Maybe Im just choosy whenever it comes on picking someone. I like everything in its place. I dont like playing around. I dont like spending or wasting time on something that wouldnt last!.. I dont know if I look to intimidating but I know Im not because Im very deary, weird and approachable. There are times Im feeling hasty on having that perfect one love thingyy.. but the voice of the my God tells me that He have great plans in my life and that plans are just toOOo good to be true that I wouldnt have to worry for a FUTURE. And I have faith on Him, by His words I live. I dont have to be anxious about shallow stuffs in life.And yea I am hoping that He will give an answered pray. The one tested by Him through His and my STANDARDS. The perfect pair of my soul, the one I could spend my life with Glorifying God's name...
Hey by the way its me, JOY =p

- Friendster Blog
http://joi24.blogs.friendster.com/euphoria/

Chyea.. I think thats what Im looking forward and have been waiting patiently for, actually I had made a pact with God (which I will post someday) regarding this very special person whom He is wonderfully sending just for me in His perfect time.

I acknowledge that when I found God i have been remade and been made whole. Only Him can satisfy. He filled me with His very presence which I find joy and love that even the world can never ever take away..

Lets be patient, let us not seek for happiness in the wrong place. I remember the poster that I have seen yesterday and it says that "Real Happiness is following Christ". Yerp yerp.. I agree with all of me...

When He made me whole again, all I think I wanna do is find myself in Him.. I dont have to worry, rush, and create my own happiness by my own deeds. I want more than the happy feelings, i want JOY. Joy in seeking Him, Joy in obeying Him, joy in waiting for Him and Joy in doing His Will..

Hahaha. Chyea

Kasalukuyan akong nandito sa SM North, oo tinuloy ko.. nakakahiya para lan to kay Negra at Girl Laway aka Jenikols. Hahaha. Pag nanalo tayo ay lilibre ko kayo unlimited chicken proben.

Nakakatawa yun vendor sa bus. Kinukulit ako kung koreano daw ba ako. At binibigyan ako ng product nya ngunit sinabi ko nalang na "sa mga bata nyo nalang po ibigay yan". Hay hay..

Ampogi ng suot ko. Pano ba ko magsisimba nito mamaya.

Lol..

Bye bye alis na q..

=[

i cant seems to mark and have my words. Sorry Lord. I'll do it perfectly right next week... Forgive mee....

whewww....... this is just a trip.. I'll join the Fit and Right Challenge.

If matutuloy ako tom... whewww...

Skewl is stressing us, again.. Jam..boo.. boo... Bam Bam Bam... I need more patience, I'd rather be stressed over here than be depressed with certain peepz. LOL

The power of His Name is my freedom.........

Let Your will be done Lord...

belatedz and gatherings..

hey hey.. havent seen Madie for a long time..

so we decided to meet up.. =)

and there were this man recruting us into "i-dont-kno-kind of business" that made us crunk by his "hey, you look familiar" strategies. Wahaha. I cant believe I even shook hands with him. lol. but i think he has some appeal. bluhhh... But i dont really like men and not interested. LOL.

waahh... wala parin stock nito!!!

my 20th....

its been a good day...


ill just some upload pics in here..

first 20th pic with monte @ cab
spags.. k9..

thanks to negra and jenikols..
ate and her guy. my only guests. lol with the free red ribbon cake and fruits..
thanks to Joey the meanest sweetest girl. Hhahaha

Thanks for the people who made my day special.. Blah.. ill upload other pics if i have time...

edit edit-

natutuwa naman aq sa nag-greet sa kin sa _oO_ hahaha,, ;p
moi indi q cya crush,, ;p

Im turnin 20 in an hour.. lol

Happy Birthday to me…

So by that I listed my 20 Birthday’s Resolution!!

Here goes the list:

1. I’ll never drink cold drinks and will not over indulge into ice creams.
2. I’ll stop eating junk foods.
3. I’ll stop having bangs.
4. I’ll wake up early.
5. I’ll won’t procrastinate and fight the lazy bones inside of me.
6. I won’t load my sun digits and let it idle until April. Hahaha.
7. I WILL save mon.
8. I’ll act as my age and stop teasing friends real hard.
9. I won’t over-analyze things.
10. I would like to smile more and laugh less. (especially during class)
11. I’ll let go of the past and the bitterness..
12. I’ll never complain and grumble petty stuffs.
13. I won’t swear much, yet keep my promises.
14. I will follow hard, obey and respect people.
15. I’ll delete irrelevant net accounts that waste my time.
16. I’ll ditch my obsession over net, photos, make-up and fashion. Bye bye world’s charm.
17. I’ll refrain from being self-conscious and learn to prettify my soul in God’s way.
18. I WILL NEVER have and nurse a “crush” emotions with the wrong man. (Exception to Orlando Bloom hahaha.)
19. I will be more patient and wait for the Lord and His will.
20. I’ll spend more time on my prayers and devotions.

Moi. Its my first day on my 6day long fasting. Its my first birthday which I cannot eat the foods prepared by my mom. And waahhhh.. I have been the one who prepared the ingredients for “the best pasta in the world” aka my mom’s pasta which I’ll just bring to my friends tomorrow (because they demand for it!!).

But it’s more than fine knowing that God is nourishing my soul and always watching my life from above. Thank God in advance for the fulfillment of my desires and His perfect will in my life.

I’ll make it up on my sis birthday (the 29th). I’ll eat lots of sea food… Hahaha…

Thank You Lord Jesus... for everything.

The Oldies

I have a motor-like mouth. it wont stop until engine runs out! :)

the about me in my HI5. lol.

Im just tryin to checked some devotional stuffs when i think about my old stuffs. and finally after years i open and log in my idle accounts (hi5 and hipstir) grabe, nakakatawa yun mga accounts ko, sobrang luma and out-dated. I even forgot the email address and passwords of it.

I looked so young in those pics. I had those weird looking face on the older pics like the circle blush that made me laugh hysterically. Hhahaha.. Im just surprised that there are still lotsa people trying to add my accounts. (kahit na idle nga).

Aryt.. I'll update my pages if I have time and prolly erase the not so useful ones..

but check out first my "batang yagit days"


My old hipstir


My hi5





hahaha... i miss my former net obsession. i miss my online friends. bigtime!

but i dont miss my old self.. lalala.

im off. its 3 am. im so sleeppyyy.........

It’s the last 7 days of being 19..

Its 7 days before my 20th.

Last night we had dinner with family and my sis’ bf and his mom. And on my sis bf’s and my mom conversation, my mom asked me “ilan taon ka na ba?”, I answered “mag te-twenty”. “Oh hindi nga? Mag ni-19 ka palang” my mom’s responds.

Haha. Im feeling so old already. Yet i act so immature on almost everyday, I still like to react weirdly, tease like kids and laugh silly with cliques, im just happy with everything I guess. Things quite falls on its places, God is managing my life. I don’t need a planner anymore….

That’s why I don’t have any plans on my birthday.. Haha..

This afternoon, I’ve gone workin out. And okay, I surrender.. Ayaw ko ng ituloy ang pag-gygym. Id rather drink med than stressing my bod in 3hours sweating. And I don’t want any muscle (as in macho muscle) to develop especially by that stationary bike and treadmill.

Ive wasted 3 hours. When I’m home I told my mom these words “ayaw ko na, magkakamuscle lang ako. Kakain nalang ako!!” Oh huh… and I just got ako ng 4 mini toblerones at the fridge. Hahah.. She even suggested taking up Xenical, at dahil kuripot ako, ayaw ko kasi mahal. Hahahhaha

As usual, few passed the mandarin exam, I won’t be surprised. It feels like im not focusing much on studies. Nakakahawa ang pagiging tamad ng mga classmates ko.. Aryt next month ill strive.

Sige na nga.. Next week I’ll stress my self on studying notes, its like all day long I’m comforting friends on their love depressions and if there is a moment na mahahawa ako I’ll started thinking of other things better. LOL.

Foolish days are long gone for me, I just laugh at my crunkness in the past. I will never ever gon be the old me towards some life serious thing. Remember, ill be 20 next week.. Maybe ill ditch some of the not so relevant characters I may not need in my life and towards eternity.

May God bless my twen”teen” with so much of Him that overflows not only in my life but also for others.

Ayt ayt.. I think I just want to play basketball on my birthday. That’s all I wanna do.

i have been remade.

This day has been one of the greatest days in my life. I have already met one of Jesus’ requirements. I have obeyed one of His commandments(Mt. 28:19) because I love Him(John 14:12). I was water baptized… Finally!!!!!

I know I should have done this before, but I think its God’s plan to lead me to the perfect time when I was the one seeking and whole heartedly willing to burry my life of sin and live a new life and follow Christ.

It feels so good. I felt that everything was now official. I was born again. Born from above. I can see the Kingdom of God.(John 3:3-7)

I hope that I will be able to obey more of His commands and live in God’s Will for all of my life.

This is the very first steps God is leading me, and I believe He’ll lead me on something more. He’ll lead me to new horizons and take me places by just trusting completely in Him…

Life Lesson in 2 days..

I didn’t had the chance to attend the Friday Youth Service, chyerp, my first absent since August that’s because I have to find people who can repair my sister’s battery charger which I surprisingly wrecked last Thurs mawn while im havin a bad day..

I went to Raon and found some repair shops.. so I let them do it and wait… I waited.. waited, for the first 30 minutes.. “Mam, sandali lang toh”. “sige po” sabi ko. I waited another 30 mins, its 6pm.. “malelate ako nito”, I thought. Another hour passed. “hindi na ko makakapunta” my mind conclude. And yea, the nice thing was they end up wrecking its part more. Chyea…

But the best part while I am waiting was that there is this man(prolly a man who owned another booth) who bought the 2nd hand TV on the Shop. He told the people “isang libo nalang pare, ibibigay ko lan to sa malapit kong kamag-anak. Na-habag kasi ako, sabi sakin nung pasko “mamamatay nalang ako hindi pa ako nagkakaron ng TV”, naawa ako eh, atleast may tv na siya”. WOW!!! I realized that there are still beautiful people even in a repulsive place and crowd.

The deal was closed… Aryt he bought the TV and what mades me crunk is the yea he paid it in “isang bagsakan” (because he was joking that he would pay it in installment, that day and another day) with all 5 and 10 peso coins.

Back to the topic before the kind man with his loads of coins. Then they didn’t put back together the charger. Im bad.. “Im gonna buy a new one” the only thing that’s on my mind. I went to Rob Manila,.. Find something to switch for that thing.. “Ok mahal cya” nasabi ko when I saw the price.

So I went back home desperate… I dont know where on earth I can find extra mon for the charger. Una ko pang nasabi sa Nanay ko is “Nanay, bigay mo na sakin yun 1week na allowance ko”.

So my sis got home already, I fessed all, of course what would I expect she threw the charger on my bed screaming “wag ka na gagamit ng kahit anong gamit ko”. Whew, I felt so guilty. I cant look to her in face.

So I ask my dad to lend me mon, but I really doubt that he will. I was in shambles, I felt.. So all night long I was like a weirdo crying and asking God what to do..

“Lord alam ko mababaw lang toh na iniiyakan ko pero hindi mo naman tinatawanan yun condition ko diba, tulungan mo ko, wala na akong malapitan.” I told Him.

This morning….

Thank God that my mom hand me the mon, Joy filled my heart.. I was about to hang at Joy’s house so I phoned her again telling “sige indi na ko punta jan, sa isang bahay nalang kita tatawagan tungkol sa nginawaan ko kagabi”. “Ano ba yun?”she asked. I answered. “wala yun ndi sa lalake yun, hindi ako iiyak sa lalake, mas iiyakan ko pa mga material na bagay”. Hahha.. The point is that I would rather cry for broken stuffs that has value over love.. Besides, I thought about it way before that real LOVE wont let me cry for bad reasons.

Teka..

Malalayo tayo sa topic..

I texted my sister that Im goin to buy replacement for her thing., she even told me that I don’t have to, her boyfriend will nalang daw.. Then I insist so I bought the replacement and compromised my week allownce. haha.

Then went straight to my Cousin’s house, and some unexplainable happened to her, which is very personal and I can’t tell much about. But she’s fine now..

It’s amazing that really JESUS’ name is sooo powerful above every circumstances, sicknesses, fears and every negative forces.

Thank Jesus for everything. For in His name there is dominion above all. What more if we obey His will and have a real relationship with Him….

Blessings and guidance follows to those who is willing to obey and love Him..

so-so day..

I really didn’t have that great day.. well I think its because I started it in a very frustrating way.. and some lil things followed.

I left the house immediately in order not to mess some other things. And I hate the way I reacted on lil things. Then I finally arrived at skew, I cleared my conscience, alright, I have to be still, I cant solve things under an anxious mind..

on my seat a classmate greeted me with.. “Ang simple mo naman Deborah, ikaw ba yan?”.

Yeah. That moment I realized that after I put powder on face I directly leave the house, without even a balm and my fave of all-EYELINER! Hahah….

I’ve been almost half day at skew… Some things goes out right like the midterm test was postponed. But most of the stuffs are stressing!! Haha, and I found myself complaining again, and I don’t like the feeling.

Whew, I have lots of needs. I don’t know how on earth can do and have those. Ohh weelll… my only hope is the word “FAITH”.

Im sssoooo tired. My last meal was 1pm??? Now that I just got home there’s no dinner prepared. Hahah… Now that’s diet!!


Well well, I can’t adjust my weighing scale as I saw this pic. Lol

I am really like this man who's denial of his weight prob. Now that my uniform is visibly “malapit ng pumutok”, I have to work on it. Haha

Whew,,, can I lose a minimum of 10lbs until Feb? I like the idea but I definitely doubt my effort on fighting against this constant struggle of slimming down. Lol..

Crunkies at skew...

“No wonder the Philippine education is worse. Now I see the picture.”

- Wo Laoshi
January 8, 2008

Galit na galit si Laoshi, sa dalawang linggong bakasyon ay walang matino at nagsumikap na kabisaduhinn ang script.

Nagngingitngit ang pulseras nyang “light blue” ang ingay daw ng klase namin. Pinapagod nanaman niya an gaming isipan sa mga paalalala niya sa aktividades na gagawin namin ngayon buwan ng Enero.

“Ganyan ba ang kilos ninyo? Di kayo naawa sa sarili nyo. Why not kilos when there is time.. diba?” galit na sabi sabay hawak sa mga taleta at pinasok ito sa kanyang kalupi. Sabay lagok ng kekoukele(mandarin ng coke) in can.

“21 ka na bakla”. Sigaw ni Jakjak. Birthday ngayon ni Bugoy(aka Joy).
“Chelsea, Chelsea” Tawag ni Bugoy kay Buhawi. Na tumutukoy sa manyika sa Patayin sa sindak si Barbara.
“kala ko naman kong sinong Chelsea” sagot ni Buhawi Jack. “Basa ko pa dun Chel..se..ya..”

Hay Hay… Nakikita ko si Juling.. naka kyutiks na itim.. Maangas. Nagsisi ako na
hindi ako naglagay ng itim na kyutiks kagabi at pinangkulay ko na lang sa
sapatos ko. TOTOO! Ayan, kasalukuyan siyang nagdodoodles sa notebook,
nagdodrowing ata ng fishbone(LOL!) at iyan hinawi nya ang buhok nya. WAW!
EMONG-EMO..

Inutusan nanaman si Joseph. Bat ganyan yun buhok nya? Parang isa sa mga cast ng “Kung Fu Kids”. Everybody goes Kung Fu Fighting.

WOOOAAAHHHHHHHHH!!! BINGOOOO!!!. Nahuli sa akto si Bugoy at Jerbie(Joey) na nagdadaldalan. “Stop chismising” sigaw si Laoshi. “wag na pag-usapan ang mga boyfriend- boyfriend” pahabol pa.
“Wala nga kaming boyfriend”. Tanging reaksyon ni Bugoy.

Balik tayo kay Laoshi May bagong midterm alternative… CLOSE IT NA. Ayaw na naming ng bagong script. Laban na.. Laoshi make himself clear daw. Wala na, talo na ang mga sumisigaw ng close it. Nanaig ang takot sa 5.00 ng mga kaklase ko. Susugal
Kami sa wala, papasok kami sa karayom na walang butas (o aspile). As usual wala nanaman papasa.

Hao!! Este Ok,.. Ang napagpasyahang midterm ay Fone Conversation. Baliwala ang pagod at pagpupuyat ko sa ginawa kong script. Wala ng urungan ito. Isinusulat na sa blackboard yung script. Hindi ko maintindihan ang sulat niya.

“Bagong taon na, magbagong buhay na Kayo” sigaw ni Claire habang ang lahat ay kumukopya. Ako lang ang walang interest kumopya. Nakakatamad eh..
“Dalian nyo copy, Kasi pag puno na dito erase ko na ito. Im not going to wait for you.” Paalala ni Laoshi.

Parang timang si Jack.. Hehe. Ang rahas.. Pagtapos tumawa dahil sa sobrang kaligaligan ay binatukan si Sittie ng walang kaalam-alam.

Isang ewan na balita, dumating na si Lundun Boy, ang masaya may gf na daw siyang “French”. At sabi pa kay Sittie “I-kiss mo nalang ako pag nagkita kayo”. Natawa ako. Naisip ko na ayaw ko pa palang magboyfriend.

Ibahin ang usapan, Natuwa din pala ako ng mabanggit kanina ni Laoshi na mas mabuti pang magresign nalang daw siya at sinabing “I am going to take care of my mom, we’ll go shopping. Kahit na wala akong pera atleast masaya siya”. Nasabi ko sa isip ko “Godbless you Laoshi”. Natutuwa ako sa mga mapagmahal na tao.

Biglaang Balita…. Nanakawan ang isa sa mga kaklase ko ng wallet. Apat na libo ang laman. Ang payo ni Laoshi ay “wag kayong shonga-shonga".

“Mamamia.. di parin kabisado ang Yi, Er, San.” Natatawang at pailing na sabi ni Laoshi samin.
“Laoshi Italyano na kayo” hirit ni Medhi.

“1:20 pa lang” sabi ni Jack.. Ang tagal ng oras. Alas tres pa ang labas namin dito.. Mapipilitan akong magsulat..

Magsusulat na ako.

At dito ito natatapos.

LOL!. That’s what happens in our Mandarin class. It’s like we’re taking a rollercoaster ride of emotions. The scenario is there’s a moment of the prof nagging at us real mad, students (we) pleading for a lighter language activity and in the end everything will just burst a sweet smiles and laughter..




Some pics in Mandarin Class.

Friends:

kulang nanaman

jowaa wannabee..

happy birthday montealeger..

my new hair..

yerp...

its was chopped last dec 31, i thought nga na new year.. everything must be new...

i just realize na i look like a guy... but i like to wear men stuffs...

like guy's tee, sneaks and baggy pants. lol

anyhows..

eto nah.. hahaha

haha.. inuna ko pa yan rather than my mandarin lessons.. waahhh..

this is so greattttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

http://planetshakersaus.multiply.com/music

The PS have new album...
This made my whole year....
Yeah, the people who loves and worship GOD are people who "rock!!!"

You're my One Desire...

my King, its You that I seek
my Lord, its You i adore
and all I want is to know You more

and now
my life's to Your throne
i long for You alone
and all i want is to know You more

You're my One Desire
and the cry of my heart
is to know my Savior
and to be more like You are

My One desire...

My One Desire is You, Jesus..

All I dream is to serve
and to walk in Your way
I will worship Jesus
all my days..